Thursday, July 1, 2010

Finding out...

No matter how much confidence one has in predicting reactions in dangerous situations, there really is no way of knowing until it happens... (bigger)

It's a very scary thing when you find yourself unexpectedly in a situation where that adrenaline surge kicks in so hard and so fast that cognition and rational thought fall away faster than leaves in a hurricane.  To be left with only reflexes (no matter how practiced and tuned) is to be at the mercy of who you really are... no chance to hide your fears or anxieties... no chance to delay a decision... no chance to pretend to be what you are not... it's just raw survival.

While it's a great and exciting feeling to look back and realize that you made it through unscathed - that your reflexes and training will save you - finding out that in a maximum pressure situation your expectation about whether you would run away or hold your ground was wrong is unsettling.  But even so, finding out a little more about who you truly are does bring confidence - experience matters in life, sometimes more than anything else...